It’s a funny thing when The Lord lays something on your heart. Just like with anything in life, we have the choice to say “yes” or “no” – to pursue something or choose to let that particular opportunity pass us by because we don’t see it fitting into our current life situation.
Being a planner and a “To-Do” List lover, there have been many things I have not pursued or I let pass me by because I don’t think that it will fit into my current life situation and God, being the gracious and loving God that He is, lets me sit in the control seat for a little while. But then, those opportunities, that He laid on my heart, that I decided to pass up, He brings them back to the surface. He places them back on the table of my heart and, in His still small voice, asks me to take a second look.
The idea of starting a blog has been placed on the table of my heart not once, twice, or even three times – this has been a 5 year journey where God has been graciously giving me the space to process His word — process how a blog is going to fit into the life of a Girls High School Minister who already has a full plate or how another blog, in a sea of blogs on social media, would say anything new? God has also been lovingly walking me through the insecurities and the fears that come with starting any new venture, especially one where others get a front row seat – the fear of stepping out, the fear of others’ opinions, the fear of zero readers, the fear of comparison, the fear of failure.
But, God being who He is, He is relentless in the best way, and as each question arose in the process, He answered it; as each fear arose, He silenced it. He was God and He showed up and, in His time, He showed me that this opportunity had become a holy charge and something that He was lovingly commissioning me to step into – no matter the outcome, no matter the feedback, it was a simple ask from my heavenly Father to trust Him – to trust what He laid on my heart and then stand back and watch Him do His work.
What started out as a 5 year wrestling match with God, now stands as a season that opened my eyes to the simplicity that can come when we trust the things He lays on our heart. It’s not simplicity in the sense that it is free of difficulty, wrestling is frustrating and exhausting. But it’s after seeing the difficulty that comes when we try to sit in the control seat, we see the simplicity in making a choice to trust the heart of God and believing that everything He ushers us into is for our good and He is doing His best work, we just have to say the simple “yes”.
So, this is my simple “yes”. This is me trusting the heart of God and believing that as He ushers me into this new adventure, He is using it for my good and that He is doing His best work. What a precious gift to be a part of what God is doing.
I would love for you to join me on this journey – this journey of seeing Jesus in the simple, every day moments. After all, Jesus is the moment; He simply is.